ben and caitlin

It was so great to see you. Only 2 days but they were a great 2 days. I am so honored to have you as my brother, ben. I'm so proud of you. And Caitlin, I've never felt anything to be so right for my bro as you are. And I look up to you very much. Congrats on the new job and on the appartment. I can't wait to see it. Not long now. Only 5 1/2 months and I really like it here, so maybe I can wait that long. Twice now I've had to say goodbye at 6am- you guys and Eloise. In a way it's kinda easier. You're in a drowsy state, you don't really realise what's going on. There's a vague feeling of sadness and a strong presence of stress that they might miss the train. Then something happens. It all moves so quickly, a messy balance between wanting to say a proper goodbye and wanting them to make their train. You utter a 'goodbye' but you're not really sure if it was a goodbye. Then you stumble back into bed and pass out. But 4 hours later when you wake up, you feel a void and you realise what happened in the early hours of that morning. I love you two. I miss you guys. xoxo

&nbs p;