loneliness

last night at the train station I felt a bit lost. After eating some very suspect chicken satay, with each bite predicting the oncoming food poisoning and the 11 hour train ride on which to endure aforementioned illness, yet continuing to eat it as if I were Devon Sawa in that movie "Idle hands" where he can't stop his hands from killing people and he even tries to put it in the microwave, I still had an hour to burn. What to do?? What to do?? So i had an ice cream (no food poisoning thoughts here)-15 mins down. then I saw it...internet! 1 euro an hour! Amidst (literally one on each side) the men looking up porn i read my emails. 1. Mon-always there for me- love you and miss you like crazy. not long to go! Dave- big changes, scary but good times. at least now you can finally hook up with Steve as I know you have been longing to do for so long. Ah I wish I was there to give you a big hug and then rip open your stud button cowboy shirt, which although you try to deny it you really love! Hannah- always keeping me informed on the balmain gossip and sending me love. love you very very much. Benjy- FUCK I MISS YOU! Dad- so excited about seeing you! Caitlin- we're going to be on the same continent soon! we will make it to NY together one day! Mic-love you and miss you alot. so glad you are so happy, just wish I could be there and be happy with you. So my 45 mins was filled with love, and peripherally with porn. thanks guys! I love you all. you make me feel like dancing, gonna dance the night away.

&nbs p;